Penny For Your Thoughts

[Bre]

Fatal disagreed with his words. Show emotion? Why would she ever? Open herself up and accept someone into her? Learn trust? How could she..? Was it even possible for her? She began to question everything. She didnt like this, her eyes turn to him filled with a sudden sadness.

"Not everyone is easily accepting of others as you. Not everyone was taught it was okay to feel. Not everyone is willing to be hurt by others, because they mistakes. I am weak different ways, so it everyone. I can't be brave in that sense like the rest of you."

She sighed and stood up, not wishing to speak with him anymore. He caused her to think about things she had so long tried to dogde. She padded away, towards her den. Maybe sleep would help her restless lost soul, but as soon as she neared her den she turned away from it and sat down. Her back to Caden, he was wise in some sense. She knew he was right on some parts but as was she in some parts. Her periecing green eyes looked towards the waving tree's. The wind talking to her, as if it was just a one on one conversation.

"Accepting from ones wise words is learning from ones wise words. But how can you accept when you've been raised in Denial?"

This wasn't for anyone in specific, maybe for herself. She usually never spoke her out loud thoughts that lead to her secrets but maybe it was time to find someone who could be like Drake. Someone that would understand her and not judge her choices. But as soon as the thought came she shook it away. Dimissing it as if it never had happened. Caden was certainly getting into her head even though it was a brief conversation. Her pelt was ruffled by the rushing wind again, making it shimmer a bit. Her tail was wrapped around her paws that clung to the dirt as if the wind was trying to uproot her like a plant. She tucked her nose into her muzzle blocking out the wind from sweeping into her nose && make it colder than it already was.

Fatal deseperately wished Drake was here to talk to. She need closure, on many things. Especially now, she wondered where Duke and the others had been it was Sun high and no one was in camp except her and the prisoner. For the 1st time she longed for another wolfs presence, this wasn't shocking to her. She had felt herself begin to change when her and Drake split, but now it was noticable. Drake was her rock in the river and without him she would over flow creating a rushing waterfall as she fell.

[[Midnight]]

Caden's frown made him looked older somehow. It may have just been his scraggly look and the stench of sickness that clung to his fur that added to his look of maturity. His ears were perked as he listened to this girl, wondering at the same time why he was bothering having such an intellectual chat with some no-good stranger. These wolves really were all cowards down to the bone. But that sad, sad look in her green eyes was a testamane to the fact that something had to be done about Falling Moon. This pack was awful. Had he already died and simply been brought to some sort of personal hell, where everyone around him wore no smile, told no joke, felt no love or honor? He looked at Fatal with pity.

"It's not that we want to be hurt, it's just an unavoidable thing that happens, whether you speak your feelings out loud or not," he said, his claws ripping into the soil as he stretched his front legs forward. "It doesn't matter if I had been cruel and mean to Duke, or even friendlier than I've always been. We both know I'd still have been kidnapped that day no matter what emotions or weaknesses I kept hidden.

"So speak for yourself next time you tell me to be more reserved. You've just shown me all of your weaknesses," he explained, his eyes calculating as he seemed to be studying her with more intensity. "You're rather hypocritical, speaking of all these secret weaknesses and being strong as a leader, when the truth is, you're as desperate for someone to understand you as we all are. That's why your eyes are so sad," he ended, his voice as soft as a fresh snowfall. But his eyes were cold, as though he were taking her advice to heart, to show no emotion. "Being alone with your thoughts must be the loneliest feeling in the world. I don't envy you. Back home, with my pack, there's always a shoulder to lean on."

[Bre]

Fatal

Didn't acknowledge his comments she had already zoned out into her own thoughts by the time he had decided to speak again so those words of truth never really reached her brain.

She had already mulled through desperate ideas and decided it was best she was right, of course the old wolf was also right in a awkward way but only on his part. He had someone to open up to back at his pack. She had no one in this pack, maybe she had met the Dancing stars everything would of been different but they weren't and that was it. Nothing was going to change it because it was too late.

She caught the end of his comments about her eyes being sad and herself being lonely. She was lonely in a way but also not. She actually preferred solitude even if she was like him she had always like solitude but that was just her nature. But she knew exactly what he had meant by loneliness and he wasn't incorrect. In fact he was right, so right it just made her even more depressed. It was funny how someone she didn't know could see all this but her pack mates could not. But then again that was because most of them we're dealing with their own pain as well. She sighed and turned to look at him.

"My eyes are sad but beautiful, I show no emotion yet I am considered weak and strong. Either way we are all weak and strong, both sad and happy. Regardless of anything you can't always be happy, always be strong. I can be happy but choose not show it when I am. Its not a matter that I reject my emotions completely its just I don't feel the need to show them when no one cares about them. You would never understand as for you were brought up in a clan of open ears and problem solvers. I wasn't even born here, I just happen to stumble across this pack. "

She paused her voice soft for once and her eyes gleamed with sadness. She realized it was dangerous to open up to this strange but she was losing control of herself and her other pack mates weren't willing to listen so why not open up to the strange who was probably to be killed. But it was something about him. Caden reminded her of Drake, it was odd you couldn't notice it right away but the way he spoke with such knowledge and truth. You could tell he thought deep before he spoke and the words were always soft even if they were harsh.

"I am not asking you to be reserved there was no way for you to be, I was making a suggestion no need for you to try to bite off my tail because my way of life aggravates you. Those words you speak are true but also judgmental on your part. You act like I planned with them to capture you. I didn't even know who you were till Duke announced he captured the leader of our rival pack."

Her tone wasn't in anger nor pain, just pure calmness. It amazed her how calm she was. She knew she was hypocritical of course in a way but she didn't demand it from him as he was to her. But she figured that because he still had the sense of being a leader, oddly even after the small debate she respected him. She didn't know why but she also didn't question it. She sat down and looked at him, head tilted just watching her green eyes staring at him.


"You seem to want to help me in a odd way. Or maybe that just the feeling I'm getting from you..."

She sighed and perked her ears expecting to hear paws steps soon, the sun was lowering and she knew her pack mates would return soon. She hoped Justyn wouldn't show up that was the last person she wanted to see.